I'm on fire.

I feel good. 
Today was good. 

I woke up hangover free.
I went outside this morning for a cigarette, and it was forty-four degrees. 
The snow was melting. 
The sun was shining. 
And I actually felt WARM. 
I didn’t shiver. 
I didn’t feel like screaming. 
I could actually enjoy my ENTIRE cigarette without wanting to run inside and dive under a mountain of blankets. 

I cleaned. 
I called my friends. 
I called my mom. 
She decided winter was over because she is also sick of being cold all the time. 
(I sincerely hope her proclamation holds true, and even if it doesn’t, I’ll still love her)
I took a shower.
I shaved my face. 
I didn’t cut myself.
(& I didn’t trim my pubes; oops)
I took out the trash. 
I did laundry. 
I danced.
I was productive. 

I went to dinner with a friend. 
For some reason, everyone in the cafeteria was wearing suits and looked really handsome. 
I had holes in my clothes,
We had salt on the backs of our jeans,
We felt underdressed. 

My friend spilled her drink, and everyone looked angry, so we ran away.

Then we ate ice cream, 
And it was delicious. 
And all was well. 

I didn’t watch the super bowl. 
I don’t even know who played. 
Or who won.
And I’m okay with that. 

Instead, my roommate and I went over to a friend’s to borrow a movie.
As we were leaving, our friend gave me a dozen or so little stuffed hearts. 
They made me happy. 







(Everyone I know is in love. 
All of my friends are in love. 
The figures in my paintings are in love. 
The people making out on tv are in love. 
And it’s beautiful.)







Then my roommate and I fed our heads
And watched alice in wonderland. 
It was nonsense.

Afterwards, we feasted on pizza. 
And it wasn’t as good as when I was drunk last night. 
But all was well. 

I just stole some of my roommate’s Nyquil (again)
And my roommate is throwing up. 
My saliva is red. 
So is his vomit. 
And I’m going to sleep really well tonight. 
And even though I’ll be sleeping alone, 
All will be well. 

“god, it’s been a lovely day, 
everything is going my way. 
I had so much fun today 
And I’m on fire”

Today was a good day. 
And I’m on fire.